I found my aliveness and connection to myself in my breath, and the energy I could feel flowing through my body. It was an intense sensation of inner love that sprung forth in me, awakening a great excitement, and joy.
These lines of flowing energy that I felt cascading through me, from my head into my core and out through the lines of my arms and legs, i thought, must be what the Chinese call meridians and chi. I imagined doctors would call them nerve pathways.
I called them Lines of Light.
The lines had a magnetic power that seemed to pull my body into its natural alignment. These lines felt beautiful and the closer I was to alignment—the more the breath could flow in me and stimulate this energy and light, the healthier and stronger I felt.
We are electrical beings sparking and flickering in moving excitement, with endless star-like shooting rays of light reaching to make connections in every moment, within our own body, with each other, and with the physical universe. Tiny shoots of light dancing in endless potential to touch and connect, with endless opportunities to form new connections, new pathways, new creations. Through connection, every spark of life continues in its potential of life. This Insistent and never-ending sparking never lets up, the force of life driving us to reach for connection.
I knew that as long as I could feel this light, this love, I could feel joy, I could feel happiness, I was not lost. My love could never be taken from me again because now I knew what love was, I understood its makeup, I could feel its essence.
The dictionary definition of Love is attraction, adoration, affection, and attachment; tenderness, loyalty, and care—an indescribable euphoric feeling. All these words describe the feelings that love generates, but what is the cause of love? What inspires us to love? Is sexual desire love? Why do we have these feelings for some people and not others? At some times and not others? Why does love come, and why does love go?
It is in love that we feel most awake; it is always in love that we feel most alive, and it is in love that we feel the most pain.
photo credits on this page: Dorola Lawrence